Claret Solatium

 

I fell

in love

with you

to see

what would

happen

 

To learn

If boys

were born

cannibal

Or if cities

sharpened

them Into

teeth

 

To decide

if mothers

who devour

their young

are to

blame

Or if it is

the fathers

who abandon

them to be

feasted upon

 

I fell

in love

with you

to name

suspects

To chase

them out of

their homes

with lit torches

To throw them

into dry wells

and never

recover

them

 

I wanted to

know what

killed you

 

If it

was the

wilderness

inside your

body

sprouting

fiercely

behind a

well formed

wall of

lungs.

 

To know

if you climbed

into the Liberty Bell

to hide and

suffocated there

 

I fell in love

with you to

find you

 

To siphon

you through

the crack in

the bell

 

To scalpel

the swelling

wilderness

away from

your organs

 

I only tried

to bring you

back to life

 

I knew

you would

repay me

violently

 

But

I wanted

to know

for sure

 

I asked if

you would

take me

to see

the place

where your

cruelty slept

at night

 

You turned

off all of the

lights and

I learned

how she

is fed